Relationships Need Balance!

So I'm not perfect...thinking that I may be having incorrect (maybe mean) thought process… yet it feels so right!
It's like this, when people are in your life (outside of social network sites), they should keep in contact. If I am the only one holding on to the relationship, then that’s a problem (for me). So until I find that I am wrong, those relationships that are one sided no longer exist.
There has to be balance. I do for you, you do for me, I think of you, you think of me, I call you, and sometimes (at least), you call me… It seems fair and not one sided.
I know that I am loved. I am grateful for those that I am connected too, like my good friend Dawn, who I see physically, talk to on the phone, email and communicate via a social network site. I am also grateful for those that I am not able to see, but I am able to keep in contact via social network sites!
Those that know me know that I don't have a big family, but God is so awesome that He is restoring my family, and we are going from glory to glory!
With that being said, those who know me also know that I can have issues when it comes to family and friends because I have been abandoned as a child (another blog posting)… I’ve seem to have gone from one extreme to another… wanting people around and then, not so much… then being angry when no one was around…it’s my bend... everyone has one...! So....
I used to be around some people because an old mentor thought I should, but I was not celebrated among those people, I was tolerated. We had nothing in common except our love for Jesus. We fit perfectly together for Kingdom business, not socially. So when the mentor relationship ended with my past mentor, the relationship with that group did too… for the most part… there are some that I keep in contact with and they also keep in contact with me. We mostly keep in contact via a social network site.
But there are some that are not so computer savvy… and some that changed their numbers and never told me until there was an emergency and I realized the number was disconnected (that’s another blog).
This one person in particular said to me, "God is not through with us", and so I believed it. But when (I) email, 80% of the time I get a reply… but the funny thing is… I never get an email unless I send one… I don’t have another way to connect… so if “we’ll always be connected”, then in what way? I guess it’s just a connection in the spirit….
I feel like, don't say, “We will always be connected", when I am they only one trying to keep the connection! Maybe I’m wrong… but it just feels right… but sometimes, lots of times… my feelings lie… but until I find another truth, I’m sticking to my guns!
I'll never be rude, but I am done setting myself up to get hurt by continuing to try to connect with those that have showed by their actions (love is a verb) that they don't want to be in my life. My door is always open, but I refused to pull someone in. God celebrates me, He has placed His purpose on the inside of me, and I've got work to do! No more time to think on what could or should have been! The bottom line is that relationships need balance. I trust God to place authentic people in my life!
How about you?